I haven't written here in almost four months. I haven't felt the need to write for a variety of reasons. For the last few days I have been thinking about this blog and the space it gave me to journal about certain aspects of my life. I often still feel the need to journal, but I haven't felt the need to journal publicly for a while. I started this blog almost eight years ago, when I was pregnant with my first child. I wanted a space in which I could explore all the changes I was experiencing, and this space was very, very useful for that. In fact, this space helped to keep me sane during three pregnancies, writing and defending a dissertation, an international move, and many family issues, among other things. I discovered some good friends through this blog, and I maintained strong connections with others because of this blog. For the past year or so, blogging started to feel like a chore. I was blogging out of obligation rather than out of a desire to write or to connect with people. I didn't want to write out of obligation--I already do quite a lot of writing out of obligation. I wanted this space to be a positive space, even if I used it to rant occasionally. This is all to explain why I stopped blogging.
I am going to start blogging again, I think. I may be changing some things, including the blog's name. I'm no longer as interested in recording my experiences of being an "academic mother," which is not to say that I won't be using this space to write about those experiences. I just no longer see that as the primary thing I want to write about here. For now, I think my posts will be more personal, more about my journey as a parent and as a person. At least that is how I feel right now.
